Sunday, December 24, 2017

Dear P,

Thank you for finally making a bloody appearance.

Yours til I menopause,

Saturday, December 23, 2017


Like the sky misses the sun

Wednesday, December 20, 2017


You could have chosen to speak with gentleness

You could have spoken words that come from love instead of laced with hatred

You could have just spread happiness instead of misery

Why couldn't you just stop getting angry at me

Why do you need to be so angry at me

I spoke with as much care as I could

I tried so hard to not join in your need to fight, to react with anger at everything, but I fail because it hurt and I needed you to stop hating me

Why can't you just treat the ones you love nicely?

Why can't you just handle things like an adult?


What have I done to have this much pain caused in me?

Why do you hate me so much that you have to hurt me?

You give me so much happiness and in one second you can also make my heart bleed

Your smile makes me feel so happy but your words make me feel like I'm the worst person in the world

Nothing I can do will ever make you stop hurting and hating me

I can't play this hurting game

I'm not build to make others feel pain

I may not be perfect

But I never wanted to be perfect

If you want perfection, then you have been looking in the wrong place

I'm thankful, thankful for those who love me regardless of my shortcomings

I have realised that these are the people that I need to focus on

Thank you for making me see that


My heart is breaking but I'm staying strong
Though I feel like I can't take the pain anymore
I just have to

Sunday, December 17, 2017


I wish I could be there
Right in front of the stage
Screaming at the top of my lungs

Your Number One Fan

Sunday, December 03, 2017

Why Sun?

You pushed away the sky so hard
With all your hatred
Your anger
Your insecurities
Slayed it's beauty til it's lost its charm

You succeeded
The sky is never coming back