Wednesday, December 20, 2017

Gentleness

You could have chosen to speak with gentleness

You could have spoken words that come from love instead of laced with hatred

You could have just spread happiness instead of misery

Why couldn't you just stop getting angry at me

Why do you need to be so angry at me

I spoke with as much care as I could

I tried so hard to not join in your need to fight, to react with anger at everything, but I fail because it hurt and I needed you to stop hating me

Why can't you just treat the ones you love nicely?

Why can't you just handle things like an adult?

Why?

What have I done to have this much pain caused in me?

Why do you hate me so much that you have to hurt me?


You give me so much happiness and in one second you can also make my heart bleed

Your smile makes me feel so happy but your words make me feel like I'm the worst person in the world

Nothing I can do will ever make you stop hurting and hating me

I can't play this hurting game

I'm not build to make others feel pain

I may not be perfect

But I never wanted to be perfect

If you want perfection, then you have been looking in the wrong place

I'm thankful, thankful for those who love me regardless of my shortcomings

I have realised that these are the people that I need to focus on

Thank you for making me see that

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